I am just home from The Cabin. It is a long drive – about 4 hours – and it is a relief to be here and have that feeling of being back on familiar ground. I enjoyed getting away and spending time with H, my mom and dad, my sister and her children, and yet it is good to be home. And then, there is always that slightly shocking feeling of the sameness of being home after a get-away, that mysteriously makes you feel like you didn’t actually go anywhere.
It is hard to blog at the cabin: in that place that I refer to as the sketchy internet zone. I can access wireless at a small local coffee shop, but it is difficult to find time away from others and it is a 40 minute round trip. In all honesty it has also been a bit hard to blog of late, because I haven’t really felt any huge desire to write. Thus, I am just hanging out with my family and enjoying that soon to be interrupted endless feeling of summer.
Shortly after I got home I checked through the mail and opened a Teacher Appreciation Days flyer for a large stationary store… and it hit: Aahhh… August you know how to zoooom like few other months.
Summer is waxing… and fall is getting ready to shine in its full faced exuberance. I watch the corn grow taller in the fields as the days grow shorter and I know that school will soon begin again. For me this September will bring the 25th that I have attended as a teacher. Yikes… I can’t help but wonder if that should make me feel much older than it does. If I calculate all of my Septembers – from K to 12 to University… the number is even more shocking. I wont be doing that little bit of math!
I will choose to focus instead on the little things in my life that make it all worth while… and repeat my sometimes-weary but always-hopeful mantra: want what you have…
30 Days of Autism is a project designed to fight stigma, promote civil rights, and increase understanding and acceptance for those who process and experience the world differently.
© Leah Kelley, Thirty Days of Autism, (2011)