Ahhhh, it is Friday… and it is finally sunny… and I am home. The week is at its end and Saturday and Sunday are glistening ahead of me, full of possibility and potential.
H is playing a vintage computer game. He just told me that, “The captain is gravely injured.”
Today – although I love to write – I didn’t really want to do a post. I thought I should have the night off. I don’t know if I will be able to keep up with a post a day for 30 days… and I find myself working on lines in my head (aka: self-talk) to rationalize why I should not be expected to keep up the pace. The fact is that I did not publicly commit to doing a post each day – it was just a goal I made for myself. Still, I want the commitment to myself to be as important as if it were to someone else. Ooops… and now I guess it is public.
“Cool Buddy…” really I am more focused on my own computer. I look up, “Hey, is that an old Star Trek game?”
I watch him for a couple of minutes and we chat about his game. H tries to teach me a bit about it- but these kind of games are not my forte. I much prefer scrabble or crib.
He finally says, “Mom, you’ll just have to read the manual!” and kind of gives up on me.
Back at my computer – I am pondering the process of blogging. It has me considering things in a new light. I like it.
There is a mindfulness to my actions and I am noticing things that might otherwise have been below my radar. If I were not looking with these tired eyes for inspiration for my posts, I would be seeing and processing in a different way.
I have topics swirling around in my head: Tic-tacs, time out, dealing with grief, self-regulation strategies, perspectives on grilled cheese and swimming, the development and power of self-talk, the nudge of spring and the shedding of obligation, what is that trajectory and periods of consolidation, inexpensive sensory items, birthday party advice, problem solving… Ahhhhhhrrrgh!
I asked H where to find these games. He said to google Old Nintendo Games or go to: http://nintendo8.com/all/ (which he says will list all of the games alphabetically).
Here is the specific link to the Star Trek game: http://nintendo8.com/game/161/star_trek_-_25th_anniversary/
“It even has Dick Tracy and Gilligan’s Island” (Did I mention that my guy is a retro pop culture genius) “It even has audio in it. There is even Ghost Busters and The Three Stooges!“
Thank you to H for helping me with this post tonight.
He says that I “should add that the news is wrong about autism and it is insulting people about autism, because they think autism is bad and really it is quite a good thing actually.”
Then in character, “‘Greetings – I am Robocop. Now come back here with your hands up or I will have to use force…’ Do you like my Robocop voice? Oh they disassembled me again…”
I think: Sweet boy… you have it more together than many!!
30 Days of Autism is a project designed to fight stigma, promote civil rights, and increase understanding and acceptance for those who process and experience the world differently.
© Leah Kelley, Thirty Days of Autism, (2011)